Do I really.....
Published on November 2, 2003 By Idoexist In Misc
I signed up for this service mainly so I could get a feel for what others are thinking and writing. I have been watching a few of the articles and have been surprised that they mirror my own thoughts.
I work on a job mainly by myself. I have little to say to anybody, most of my customers are not even home while I am there working on thier pools. The greatest advantage to this is silence. I have a lot of time between work orders to think about what is going on. But then this is also causing me to be somewhat confused by what is happening all around me and to me.
I am even having trouble deciding to post this or not. I mean does anyone really care what I have to say. I don't even think that sometimes I care what I think.
I said that I have a job when actually I have four. One is the main bread and butter while the other three take up the rest of my spare time. Sunday is the only day that I don't have any work to do and that is only about 1 Sunday out of four.
I have no health insurance for me and my family. None of the small companies I work for can afford to offer it. I sure can't afford it on my own. Then again it has been like this for many years and we have been lucky so far.
This is beginning to sound like a bitch session and that is not really true. My family is happy. My wife stays at home so they get to spend time with her and she can be active in thier lives. I try to spend time with them as much as possible. I supply the basics, Home, Food, Clothing...Not a whole lot more than that but they seem content.
My Father did the same for me. What extras we didn't get he made up with time and love...Maybe that is the key. My kids seem content. My Father seemed to be content. Maybe I need to stop worrying and be content that they are content. As I watch my family interact tonight I am beginning to see that I am the only one that is concerned with what we don't have rather than happy with what we do.
This blogging might not be a bad idea. I took me awhile to try and type a post because I was afraid that others would read it and think little of me. But in reality...putting these thoughts done has helped be to think and reflect. Thanks.
Comments
on Nov 02, 2003
Hey, good article, imo. I just started a little blog here myself and I wasn't sure what to think about doing it either, but I said what the hell and posted anyways. It's good to get things written down sometimes, seems to help me at least, and guess what, at least one person is reading it ... late
on Nov 02, 2003
Y'know, I understand; my mom works a lot to support my brother and I (she's a single parent) and I know she worries that we think she doesn't love us 'cause she's always at work. But we understand, and I'm sure your family understands too (they sound happy just to have you). It's admirable that you are so dedicated to them, whereas most people are selfish and irresponsible. I sound stupid now, so I'll stop babbling, but just remember that they know what you do for them, and they may not like you not being home a lot, but they appreciate your company more because of that. Kudos!